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Liner Notes

People, by nature, like to have names for things. Without words we have a lot of trouble conceptualizing and understanding our circumstances. There's a power inherent in putting a name to something, for this record my aim was to put names to some universal experiences. This is the very basic philosophy, I'm not trying to say I invented these ideas, just that they were rolling around in my head while I was making this record. Words are powerful tools, language is the most effective symbol we have. Speaking of words, I also think the best way to understand a word is to look at the etymology, the history of how it's been used. The word "haunt" didn’t start as a ghastly, spooky thing. A haunt, traditionally, is a place you return to, a haunting is a homecoming. To name your ghosts means you are naming the things that return to you, the memories that never seem to let you go, that call you home whether you want them or not. We have the power to name them, to say, "I see you. I know you. I made you. I am you. And while you are a part of me, you are not in charge of me." By putting words and songs to the ideas on this album, it's been my way of grappling with them and learning how to live with them. If it helps you, or if it just keeps you entertained for 40 minutes, I'll have done my job and I will be happy.  

 Ava Simone

Credits 

Produced by Ava Simone 

Lead vocals, background vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass, ukulele, piano, keys, melodica, percussion: Ava Simone  

Mixing: Ava Simone Assistant mixing: Paige Rooney  Mastering: Ava Simone Creative consultation: Rocky LeRoe, Hugh Barrett, Paige Rooney Album art photographer: Anna Strelec Album art editor: Jackie Barrett  

All songs composed and arranged by Ava Simone

All lyrics by Ava Simone 

Special Thanks

To Paige, for the mac and cheese, Golden Girls marathons, and prayers. To Millie, for making me laugh more than anyone and encouraging me like no other. To Anna, for perpetually tolerating me. To Mackie, for naming my bass. To The Barrett Clan, for the well-within-reason cheerleading and giving me a soft place to land. To The Chruchiel Group, for the never-within-reason but always-necessary cheerleading. To everyone who gave me grace, lent me an ear, let me play guitar at you, I couldn't have made this record without all your help. Thank you. 

Naming My Ghosts Lyrics

 

"Destroyed For You"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

I can't stand being someone you wouldn't talk about  

I don't care how you address me, be it a whisper or a shout  

Use your heart use your voice just call me somehow  

I put my heart in your hands and watched you place it down  

 

[Verse 2]

This gravity pulls me back so how could I oppose  

I can't make sense of the heart and the hurt I've come to know  

Holding on to barbed wire and I'm not letting go  

Was I a sign from God that you're better off alone 

 

[CHORUS]

I'm throwing a white flag  

My artillery is buried where you said 

If you want I'll draw a map to it  

You can watch me be destroyed for you again  

 

[Verse 3] 

Front lines don't just disappear they linger long like dreams  

The line keeps on moving up when you pull back from me  

If this is how it ends I'll just ask for one thing  

You can let me drown but please don't make me bleed  

 

[CHORUS]

I'm throwing a white flag  

My artillery is buried where you said 

If you want I'll draw a map to it  

You can watch me be destroyed for you again

 

[Bridge]

And the hardest part  

Is loving you through it all  

Knowing it will be here tomorrow when you are gone  

When you are gone  

 

[CHORUS]

I'm throwing a white flag  

My artillery is buried where you said 

If you want I'll draw a map to it  

You can watch me be destroyed for you

You can watch me be destroyed for you 

Watch me be destroyed for you again

"Magnolia"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

His shirt on my bedroom floor  

His hands somewhere they haven't been before  

Twin flame who didn't keep his distance  

I prayed that he's what's been missing  

 

[Pre-chorus]

I wake up in the morning  

And I don't see what's coming  

 

[CHORUS]

Magnolia  

What are you running from  

Thought that I found surrender in your strength  

And I just guess I hoped you would have stayed  

 

[Verse 2]

I thought his name felt like a hymn  

But now I get sad just thinking of it  

He stayed right where he was born  

Maybe that's why he has to roam  

 

[Pre-chorus]

I wake up in the morning  

And I don't see what's coming  

 

[CHORUS]

Magnolia  

What are you running from  

Thought that I found surrender in your strength  

And I just guess I hoped you would have stayed

 

[Bridge]

Magnolia, my sweet evergreen boy  

Magnolia, please won't you tell me why  

 

[CHORUS]

Magnolia  

What are you running from  

Thought that I found surrender in your strength  

And I just guess I hoped you would have stayed

"Behind Her Hair"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

I still wear the bracelet that she gave me  

I still read the letters that she wrote  

I still sing the songs that are about her  

And somehow she is still in every note  

 

[Verse 2]

Her sweater still hangs inside my closet  

I take it out when I can't go to sleep  

And it's been years since the day it was all over  

But something about her haunts my wayward dreams  

 

[CHORUS]

I can't give up the ghost though I've tried to  

In my soul she still feels like a prayer  

Really I just miss the taste of her lips  

And the tattoo that she hid behind her hair  

 

[Verse 3]

Most days she lives behind my eyelids  

And in the face of every woman that I see  

Who knew that something deeper than the ocean  

Doesn't make a scar when it leaves  

[CHORUS]

I can't give up the ghost though I've tried to  

In my soul she still feels like a prayer  

Really I just miss the taste of her lips  

And the tattoo that she hid behind her hair 

[CHORUS]

I can't give up the ghost though I've tried to  

In my soul she still feels like a prayer  

Really I just miss the taste of her lips  

And the tattoo that she hid behind her hair 

"When the Sun Goes" 

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

With the universe expanding  

And the sea levels rising  

And oligarchs pretending they don't know a thing  

On top of all that  

Both the good and the bad  

My baby's gone, I'm alone again  

 

[CHORUS]

I know, I know, I know 

When the sun goes I'll be alone again  

Falling back into the darkness around me  

A welcome to whoever reaches me first  

 

[Verse 2] 

Every day is the same  

Wake up warmed by my own flame  

The Molotov cocktail of our times  

Wages frozen in place  

Ice caps melting away  

And the comfort of knowing it'll be over soon 

 

[CHORUS]

I know, I know, I know 

When the sun goes I'll be alone again  

Falling back into the darkness around me  

A welcome to whoever reaches me first

 

Ooh, ooh  

 

[CHORUS]

I know, I know, I know 

When the sun goes I'll be alone again  

Falling back into the darkness around me  

A welcome to whoever reaches me first

[CHORUS]

I know, I know, I know 

When the sun goes I'll be alone again  

Falling back into the darkness around me  

A welcome to whoever reaches me first

[CHORUS]

I know, I know, I know 

When the sun goes I'll be alone again  

Falling back into the darkness around me  

A welcome to whoever reaches me first

"Apparently Alive"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

There's a building on the corner that hasn't been open for a year 

But the plants inside are growing like they don't care that you aren't here 

The pavement where we used to walk is still intact like nothing's changed  

Cracked and broken it still functions and I wish I could take its place  

 

[CHORUS]

People walk around like they don't know this is a ghost town  

Your translucent skin is burned into my mind  

I'm haunted and hollow and apparently alive  

 

[Verse 2]

Every day's a broken record of the ones that came before  

Maybe next time that I leave I'll care enough to slam the door  

When I hear people say it gets better I think they must not know how bad it hurts  

Between the anger and the apathy I can't tell which is worse  

 

[CHORUS]

People walk around like they don't know this is a ghost town  

Your translucent skin is burned into my mind  

I'm haunted and hollow and apparently alive 

 

[Bridge]

Next time maybe you won't see right through me  

Next time maybe I  

Next time maybe you won't see right through me  

Next time maybe I'll survive  

 

[CHORUS]

People walk around like they don't know this is a ghost town  

Your translucent skin is burned into my mind  

I'm haunted and hollow and apparently alive 

"Between"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

What lies between the sea and sky  

Voice of angels, days gone by  

Is all the world held in that seam  

That place between the sky and sea 

 

[Verse 2] 

Will I think of you when I am there  

Somewhere beyond the hidden veil  

What joy it is to dream and be  

In between the sky and sea  

 

[Verse 3] 

Though it's true there may be nothing  

I cannot stop my thoughts, they ring  

Out such beauty that I cry  

And dream between the sea and sky  

 

[Verse 4] 

Here I stand before you I weep  

You are between the sky and sea 

When I'm to die, please let me die  

Lay me between the sea and sky  

When I'm to die, please let me die  

Lay me between the sea and sky  

"Troubadour Song"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

Side streets near the coastline  

Running to nowhere  

Jump into the water  

And salt gets in my hair  

 

[Verse 2]

Sunburns on my shoulders  

Diamonds on the sea  

Crosses by the roadside  

Could one of those be me  

 

[Pre-chorus]

Because I dance in rain so I don't feel  

The broken parts that should have healed 

 

 [CHORUS]

If all my days are numbered, I'd go knowing I tried  

And sing myself to somewhere and onward still towards life  

And onwards still towards life.  

 

[Verse 3]

Wind blows off the ocean  

Sun shines on my face  

If I could live forever 

I'd leave without a trace  

 

[Pre-chorus] 

Instead I dance in rain 'til I can't feel  

The broken parts that should have healed  

 

 [CHORUS]

If all my days are numbered, I'd go knowing I tried  

And sing myself to somewhere and onward still towards life  

And onwards still towards life. 

 [CHORUS]

If all my days are numbered, I'd go knowing I tried  

And sing myself to somewhere and onward still towards life  

And onwards still towards life. 

"Into the Sky"

Ava Simone

[Verse 1]

His clothes smell like my favorite candle  

Soft amber a hint of cashmere  

He has California in his perfect smile  

Ocean-eyed, always tired  

 

[Verse 2]

The ghost of old love hides in his words  

But he still calls me darling  

His language is sweeter than songbirds  

They just hope they're overheard  

 

[CHORUS]

I would write him into the sky  

Until he doesn’t want to hide  

I will write him into the sky 

So he knows what it is to fly  

 

[Verse 3]

He could drown me with just a kiss  

And I would break the wave  

He doesn't even have to ask  

Baby, I would die in this  

 

[CHORUS] 

I would send him into the sky  

He's too good to be just mine  

I will send him into the sky  

Until he doesn't want to hide  

 

[CHORUS] 

I would send him into the sky  

So he'd know what it is to fly  

I would write him into the sky  

He's too good to be just mine

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